reality or it's just an assignment ??

well....
it's been the end of week 4 and going to week 5...
4 weeks more to Final..
meaning..
studying hard for better grades, better GPA so that CGPA will rise eventually..

but something make me realized that undergrads is nothing with just a good results..

i'm awake from this assignment..
Managerial Communication..
Interview..
CV..
Cover letter...

hmpp...
been not participating in any CCA activities recently till present..
and..
while i was writing for my resume n cover letter..
i realize that there's nothing for me to write !!
well..
i might say..
i have not undergo my internship..
but i think that is not the excuse !!
internship doesn't make my cover letter/resume look better !!

well..
well..
before i regret or grad from MMU..
i should do SOMETHING NOW !!!!
take part in CCA !!!
"Learning is the way of LIFE !!"

i hope..
i'm not too late for it..
as i know that i'm going for my final year..
and final year is tough !
so...
no other way for me to escape unless i don't want to survive in the workforce..
or
i don't plan to work after graduating..

furthermore..
i do realized that i took this assignment seriously cos i care about what i'm going to write in my resume..
isn't this just a assignment ??
when i look for job..
i've been very nasty about the position i'm applying for...
and
honestly..
i'm quite disappointed with myself..

p/s: tough way ahead ... i shall go through it till the end !

***** GOOD LUCK *****

无聊的～

今天。。
我被FOM Admin哪里的人选去 interview 了。。
MQA(Malaysia Quality Agency)的人来visit MMU顺便反问学生。。
超无聊的。。
中奖都没那么准。。

而且。。
我们是在FOM的Meeting Room被反问的。。
哇噻！！
超酷的咯！
好像在开什么大会以酱～～

那个人就问我们。。
觉得MMU怎样咯。。
我吗。。
一句话都没说。。
因为。。
不知道要complain什么。。
而且。。
我最不会complain了。。

不过。。
其他学生提议的我都觉得对咯。。
所以我什么也没说。。
就好象有机会在那个很grand的meeting room坐坐罢了。。
呵呵。。

这几天一直都下雨。。
心情也闷闷的。。
不过。。
不知为何。。
今天的心情特别不好咯！！
很想发脾气！！
很想骂人！！
所以我说吖。。
不要惹到我！！
不然就够力咯！！

唉～～
好想逃避哦。。
什么都不要做。。
什么都不要管。。

我。。
该怎么办呢？？

心情不好啊！！！！

untitled...

lots of things happening around me unexpectedly fast...

FIRST
results released 1 day earlier than it should be and i'm not very well prepared to look at my results..
but..
it's still remain the same..
and i'm glad that i did well again in my last semester...
will be getting another rewards from eldest sis again...
*grin*

SECOND
Moral Studies Social Work Assg finished in 2 hours...
unexpectedly fast as i thought my group will be either doing the social work either on week 3 o week 4...
but i'm glad that we have just knock 1 assignment down...

THIRD
received msg from eldest sis on 29/20 1:39p.m that "grandma(paternal side) met with an accident and is unconscious (Coma).."
totally shock when i read the msg as i was outside(Times Square) on that time....

received call from Dad as he asked me if i can took 2 days off from school to go back to Perak..
purpose is to visit grandma..

received another msg from youngest sis on 29/10 3:10p.m that "Passed away le~" ...
what do i feel on that moment ??
everything went blank and i was very stunt..
my dad's mum had passed away in an ACCIDENT !!!!!
dad call again as he said that my uncle will be coming over to fetch me bc to Perak..
so i rushed back to Cyber as fast as possible...
i did not know what to bring as i'm so lost and what i did was to call my sis and asked her what to bring....

Back home...
knelt down and said "ah ma... I'm back here le...may u rest in peace"
tears roll down my cheek...
went to the coffin..
seeing grandma for the last moments..
she was pale...
extremely pale..
with the look of pain and sadness on her face makes my heart felt more painful...
i wish i could hug her on that moment...
i wish i could tell her I Love Her...
i wish i could Thanks her for leaving some genetics on me...
i wish i could listen to all her nags again..
but it's all too late by now...

grandpa lost his partner..
he was alone and lonely...
he cried sadly for uncountable time because of the pain...
he was scare that he'll be the burden to his daughters and sons...
he was sad that grandma leave him so sudden..
he had told her not to go to the rubber plantation..
yet she did not listened to her..
everything is too late..
it is predestined....

first time seeing dad cry out loudly..
calling "ma~~" when putting the blanket on grandma before the closing of the coffin....
why is everything happened so suddenly ??

could i turn back the time now ?
if i were to give another chance to talk to her..
i would tell her i miss her and i love her as my grandma...
she'll be remembered as a noble and strong grandma..
always deep in my heart...

担心你..

假期的第8天。。

还有1天。。
健忘的老人就要飞了。。
心里一直很担心的我。。
该怎么办？？

在这四天里。。

我希望。。
不要有天灾。。
不要有Terrorist。。
不要生病。。
不要食物中毒。。
不要发热气。。

我保佑你。。
一路顺风。。
一切顺利。。

能不能够赢。。
都不重要。。
这一趟飞去印尼。。
希望你能够学到很多东西。。

还有。。
不要在那里那么健忘了好吗？
你没有私人秘书陪着你去啊。。
要小心哦。。

要平安的回来哦。。
我们都在等着你回来。。

一定要回来实现我们的承诺。。


♥♥DD 我爱你♥♥

解脱了！！

哇！！
很快的。。
Final 就这样的结束了！！
两个星期。。
说长不长。。
说短不短。。
不过来临的两星期的假期是特别短的！！！
唉。。
没办法啦。。
谁叫我就读MMU啊？？

考完试的心情也是有两种
1 ：耶！！终于考完了！！！
2 ：惨了。。考得不怎么好。。我怕成绩不好。。

不过。。
现在的我。。
什么都不要想。。
尽情玩个够！！！

明天就要跟丽燕，秀莲，和 琪他们出去玩了。。
星期天就能回家了。。
开心！！开心！！开心！！

原本很睏的我。。
现在特别精神啊！！
哈哈。。。
好咯。。
我要跟“老人家”一起看电影咯。。
晚安

掰！！

中秋节快乐！！！

呜呜。。。
8月15了。。
不知道今晚会不会有圆圆大大的月亮呢？
这几年的中秋一直碰到考试期间。。
一直从我 form4/5 开始中秋节一定会有考试的。。
所以都没有机会玩蜡烛，提灯笼，和 masak-masak...
超想玩 masak-masak 的。。。
呜呜呜呜。。

今年的中秋。。
没有家人也没有“爸爸”在身边。。
除了书。。还是书。。
=.=

study week 的那个星期。。
妈咪做了我最爱的 Jelly月饼。。
虽然没有很成功。。
但还是很好吃呢。。。
^^

啊！
“爸爸”在很久很久很久很久以前也做过。。。
可是现在都没有咯。。。
问他可不可以再做给我。。
他一定会回答
“忘记了咯！！那时候是玉华（他的朋友）教我的。。”
所以我就再也没有机会吃到他做的jelly月饼咯。。
T.T

噹噹！！
这就是做月饼的过程咯。。

材料。。
蔡燕粉， Condensed Milk, Santan, Rock sugar, red bean paste, and bla bla bla...

这是天然的色素哦！
健康的呢。。。
and further de picture 就让他们 tell u the story lo..

这是 homemade 的 redbean paste 加了 santan 超级赞的！！
=D

呵呵。。
就这样！！
我又要开始大战了。。
加油咯！！

...

我很不习惯。。
不习惯的有一点辛苦。。
不过事实是不能改变的。。
也只好忍着下去。。
加油咯。。

OH NO !!

4 papers more to go...
DARN SHIT !!
all comprehensive and ESSAY type of QUESTION !!
memorize.. memorize.. memorize....
wonder how can my brain keep those things inside there !!

Pattern 多过 Badminton...

Haiz...
Wonder if he know what he studying....
if i ever study like THIS !!
for sure i won't understand what i'm studying..

Pattern 1

Pattern 2

Pattern 3

Pattern 4

Pattern 5

Pattern 6

Pattern 7

Pattern 8

Pattern 9

Pattern 10

Pattern 11

He change all his posture in less than 30minutes...
wonder if his buttock got thorn that make him can't sit still..
:P

p/s: just for entertainment...Anyway STUDYING is so Bored~ T.T

Exam Mode

It's time for me to turn myself to the EXAM mode now..
every single seconds is precious to me as i got to manage 7 paper this semester...
i know is hard for me to achieve result like my previous semester...

but i'm hoping i can create another miracle like what i did last sem...
7 subject...
comprehensive Question..
i don't really know where to start from...

please let me be healthy...
please let me be awake and not sleepy all the time..
please let me be 24hours motivated..
please let me be determine of what i want to achieve..
please let me stay happy and cheerful these 3 weeks..
please let me stay away from bad news...
please let myself stay away from bad mood..
please let me stay from what i hate...

god bless everyone of us and hope all do well in EXAM ~
加油！！
^^